This week, Brain, Child magazine is featuring an essay that I wrote for them several years ago. I didn’t realize it at the time, but the topic of the essay was the impetus for me to start tracing my family tree. Somewhere along the line of going back into my family’s past, after starting this blog, finding real live family members as well as artifacts on my family, I decided to write a memoir. (God willing) I”m in the home stretch. Finishing a project is always much more difficult for me than beginning, so it was a nice little sign from the universe when Brain, Child decided to feature the piece that got me going on this journey in the first place. You can read the essay here:
I got an extra dose of inspiration last Friday when I had the great pleasure of hosting a book club that included the author of the book we were discussing. Our club’s pick this month was the New York Times bestseller “Orphan Train,” by Christina Baker Kline. The night was such a treat: The novel takes a forgotten part of American history and weaves it into a compelling journey. The author brought her dad along. I got to ask a question about her book’s structure which I thought worked so well, something I”m struggling with in my own memoir.
The night was inspiring. Her obvious passion and enthusiasm for the real life orphan train riders that she met in the course of researching her book stoked a flame that’s been waning in me. For your own bit of inspiration, here’s the book trailer:
My grandfather, Martin Luther Ford, referred to as "mulatto" in some census documents.
In the 2010 Census, people will be able to classify themselves as Negro. The U.S. Census Bureau has added “Negro” to its forms again because some people prefer to be called by the term an official said.
I’d love to meet the people who refer to themselves as Negro. Seriously. I’m always interested in people’s personal philosophies when it comes to identity. Why someone would want to call themselves something that conjures up the Jim Crow south is particularly intriguing.
My grandmother referred to herself and other black people as colored well into the 1980s, but she’s 93. That’s what blacks were called in the early 1900s in Oklahoma where she grew up. Her father, my great grandfather, Bud Anderson had a penchant for calling everybody the n word, but only if he liked you. He also liked to carry around a shotgun, so I’m sure people just swallowed his generous use of the n word whether they found it offensive or not. My great grandmother, Josephine Burton Ford and my grandfather, Martin Ford were classified as mulattoes in a 1910 census. I wonder if that’s how my great grandmother saw herself, as a mulatto. I know that’s not how my grandfather saw himself. When I asked him if he was white, he made it clear he considered himself a black man. But I’m grateful that the census made this distinction however distasteful the word mulatto may be. “Mulatto” helped me find them in census reports and their ancestors in archives.
I like to call myself black even though some might consider African American the politically correct term. I’ve tried to use African American for myself, but it never feels right. The term didn’t come into popularity until I was in my late teens and I was used to and liked the term black by then. Besides, Africa is a big continent encompassing a plethora of cultures. Would an American whose parents were born in Egypt call herself African American, or one with parents born in India consider himself Asian American? I’d like to know. How do you identify yourself?